I need

Alright. I need to let learn to let things go.

I need ... I need .. I need.

I'm searching for closure at the same time I'm firing on all cylinders.

The last few months have gone by so fast. Time comforts while it hurls us into it's web. Finding something part time has proven fruitless so far. Though I've barely gotten my feet wet. I guess I am prolonging it. I feel like I need to prove something, anything and everything. At times I get off course but I somehow find myself back on path.

We certainly have gotten ourselves in a pickle with our house guest. We both are a little worried he's trying to 'plant' himself. Tomorrow I will be filling out applications for him. We've got to get started and soon. I want my house back.

Hi April

getting ready

I love this time of year. I seem to come alive in the spring. I'm excited about my garden. I'm ready to get everything in the ground. I spent 10 hours in the yard yesterday. It felt good.

After many years I have begun the process of mending a broken heart. For some reason, I am having a hard time starting the fire. I'm scared and I don't know why. A part of me died then and what was left of my spirit drifted out the window over the past few years. Lost to me, again and again. So the sunshine is out today and I'm praying that the power can filter through the heat and soften a heart that has grown cold and hard.

The last few weeks have been a whirlwind of emotions and skin.

I'm feeling pinned down, tired and worn.

There is a silver lining, I get to gear up and head out. Here I come.

Recently I've been trying to connect more with my family.

I don't know why it's so hard for me. I feel disconnected from them all. I'm not sure what I can do to fix things.

Fly

Today I start anew.
I feel amazing.

Things 'round' here have been getting a little better. Slow coming but progress none the less.
I haven't let go but I'm reaching out. I wanna fly .

I woke up and decided to quit my job.

It was incredible and the weight just fell off.
I'm not sure yet what I will do, but right now, I don't care.
I just want to be in this moment and enjoy it before it slips away.

The stress of home has eased, for today anyway. It's up and down.
It's got to get easier, cause I don't think it can get any worse.

My tounge is tied

Rick and I let his brother move in about 6 months ago. Mostly because he had no where to go. It truly started with the best intentions. We wanted to help.

It's been extremely difficult for me. I have lost my privacy. I have lost my organized and controlled little world. To make matters worse he doesn't shower and he's a slob. There I said it. It's the truth. I'm not sure that his family fully understands his condition. Or maybe they do? It's bad. He can barely walk, he wobbles. He is nearly at the point where he needs someone to look after him.

I have opened my home however I cannot be that person. I pray for guidance and a whole lotta of patience.

Long Winter

I have grand things planned for this year and no energy to start.

It's been a long winter.

I'm buying my own kiln. I'm so close to being out on my own that it makes me nervous.
The Lord directed my path not only to one artist in clay but two and I believe that
I am ready for this open road in front of me.

There's always frost on the copper heart that lies and waits.

I've been trying to get all my old pics off my computer. I need to be more organized. They ended up all over the place. Go figure.

Seem to be having a rough start this year.
Nothing ever seems to be easy or going right.
I take comfort in the Lord's Kingdom.
Life will steal things away and hope is all I have left.

Edner is Alive!!!

I seen Edner today. I was scared. I took a deep breath and spoke to her as she mumbled something I couldn't understand.. same old Edner.

Doctor Visit

I ended up at the Doctors today. I'm glad to report I'm still alive.

Choices

We all make choices.

Pressed Flowers Summer 2010

Dad's Bday

I still smell you...

I still smell you
I still hear your laugh in my ear
Your golden rain, your gentle ways.

A rock, a shield, a star.
You still shine to me.

I love you Dad.

I don't care

This says it all...

Road to Nowhere

When relationships are built on deception and lies

Tea Party

This is Alan Keyes. He was a key speaker at the Boiling Springs Tea Party in Boiling Springs South Carolina. They say the TEA Party members are a bunch of racists! Go figure.



Rick and Dale @ the TEA Party

Put a Candle in the Window

It's been over a year since i last posted.

Life is what it is.
What I have made it, and what I have not made it.
It's always changing and yet it's always the same.
I'm still working and trying to enjoy the clay.

crackercat

Mojo

You've broke my heart joe...You will be missed dearly. <33333

RIck

Edner and the River

She Comes









She goes....

No sense

We loaded the kiln tonight and on Wednesday we will find out what all our precious little pieces look like. I'm excited this time but I'm having a hard time showing it.

Spring is in the air

It's been a busy winter. I've been working like mad. I have my uncle, who is dying, living with me. His liver is failing, he has cancer, and a cyst on his lung. The doctors have given him anywhere from 6 months to 2 years. It's very sad. For a man dying, and suffering, he actually get around and still is a pain in the ass. Tom will never change. Not a lot going on at the Pottery Shop. I miss it. I can't wait to get things going. I have such big hopes.

Open House

Well it's finally over! I'll have some pictures to post tomorrow hopefully. It was a long but good day. I enjoyed myself and actually sold some of my pieces!

Open House

Well it's finally a memory and a great one at that! I'll have some pictures to post tomorrow hopefully. It was a long but good day. I enjoyed myself and actually sold some of my pieces. Vanessa and Ron both sold lots of stuff and I do believe everyone was happy at the results. The barn looked so neat all lit up. I hope that I'll be invited to join in the fun again!

I was somewhat surprised that Kay did not show up today. I really thought that she would come if only to talk my ear off about Dana, she's normally that way.. I guess maybe she did pick up on my tone in the email. That takes a lot of pressure off me. I need a break from the chaotic mess that is her life. The mind is a powerful enabler in times of trouble isn't it? We can make ourselves believe almost anything. It really amazes me how laid back she is about losing her children. Kay told me in the last email that she's afraid she might not be able to keep this one. Don't know why that would be, don't care to know, but somehow already do? Did that make sense?

It's been stressful the last few days. There's been so much on my mind and so much going on that I can't make my mind stop. I'm having extremely restless sleep too when I do sleep which isn't helping. I've had this problem for what seems to be forever and it comes and goes. It's been a few years though since the last duration. The only way I can describe it is that it's like being fully awake but slightly dosing. I'm dosing in slow-wave sleep. Going back and forth between Alpha and Theta. Not at all going into REM. The last time this happened it lasted for nearly 1 week. I wish I knew for certain what causes it. It sure doesn't help with DSPS but it worries me some after reading about a fatal sleep disorder where you are unable to fall into REM and eventually it will kill you. Luckily for me it comes and goes.


There's strange things in the air. I feel something coming. Don't worry though, I'll dress warm :)


The link below is pretty cool.

When I die I want to be a diamond and given to someone that will love me.
http://www.guardian.co.uk/uk_news/story/0,3604,1361676,00.html

This bowl was done by Susan Freeman.

I've been up for several hours, if you can believe that, and have managed to get nothing done, except 3 cups of coffee. My tummy hurts. I thought about starting a new blog just for the pottery but I've decided to just transform this one. The last thing I need is another blog. I have several already and they get neglected.

I've added a new link: Ron Ponce Pottery. Check it out!

We fire the kiln on friday. I CAN'T WAIT! I'm excited to see all my pieces. V has said I'm a natural but I think she's the natural! All her new stuff looks really good. I'm proud of my Mams :) I've been somewhat scared of the wheel. I much rather hand build, for now anyway.

Hope everyone is well out there. <3