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Mojo

You've broke my heart joe...You will be missed dearly. <33333

RIck

Edner and the River

She Comes









She goes....

I believe i have lost my old template. Lot's of work down the drain. It's depressing but not as depressing as my life at the moment. I have a lot going on and nothing seems to be falling into place. I guess such is life. My dreams have been scattered and out of reach. in the wind... It's that time of year where i just can't seem to catch my breath.

No sense

I've been trying hard to keep it all together. I'm under so much stress that it all landed on my shoulder/neck 3 days ago and won't go away. We loaded the kiln tonight and on Wednesday we will find out what all our precious little pieces look like. I'm excited this time but I'm having a hard time showing it. Too much life is in the way. I let out some fustration about it all to my Mams today. It felt good :D
I love my Mams <3

Rick on the other hand is in the dog house and will remain there until he finds a job. It's been 7 weeks with no money coming in. Things are starting to get a bit hairy. They screwed with my hours at work and now my rhythm is off again. I know it contributes to my mood swings. As long as I have a schedule I can keep my sleep disorder stays under control for the most part. I wish they would put me back on first shift. I actually started to like it and I knew my body liked it much better.

I guess I don't have much to say. I'm going to add some pottery links to my pottery page and call it a night. <3

Talla

Spring is in the air

It's been a busy winter. I've been working like mad. I have my uncle who is dying living with me. His liver is failing, he has cancer, and a cyst on his lung. The doctors have given him anywhere from 6 months to 2 years, depending of course on if he stops drinking and smoking. I don't see it happening. So life has been busy. Not a lot going on at the Pottery Shop. I miss it. I can't wait to get things going. I have such big hopes. Hope everyone out there is doing well. <3

Hi World :)

Open House

Well it's finally a memory and a great one at that! I'll have some pictures to post tomorrow hopefully. It was a long but good day. I enjoyed myself and actually sold some of my pieces. Vanessa and Ron both sold lots of stuff and I do believe everyone was happy at the results. The barn looked so neat all lit up. I hope that I'll be invited to join in the fun again!

I was somewhat surprised that Kay did not show up today. I really thought that she would come if only to talk my ear off about Dana, she's normally that way.. I guess maybe she did pick up on my tone in the email. That takes a lot of pressure off me. I need a break from the chaotic mess that is her life. The mind is a powerful enabler in times of trouble isn't it? We can make ourselves believe almost anything. It really amazes me how laid back she is about losing her children. Kay told me in the last email that she's afraid she might not be able to keep this one. Don't know why that would be, don't care to know, but somehow already do? Did that make sense?

It's been stressful the last few days. There's been so much on my mind and so much going on that I can't make my mind stop. I'm having extremely restless sleep too when I do sleep which isn't helping. I've had this problem for what seems to be forever and it comes and goes. It's been a few years though since the last duration. The only way I can describe it is that it's like being fully awake but slightly dosing. I'm dosing in slow-wave sleep. Going back and forth between Alpha and Theta. Not at all going into REM. The last time this happened it lasted for nearly 1 week. I wish I knew for certain what causes it. It sure doesn't help with DSPS but it worries me some after reading about a fatal sleep disorder where you are unable to fall into REM and eventually it will kill you. Luckily for me it comes and goes.


There's strange things in the air. I feel something coming. Don't worry though, I'll dress warm :)


The link below is pretty cool.

When I die I want to be a diamond and given to someone that will love me.
http://www.guardian.co.uk/uk_news/story/0,3604,1361676,00.html

This bowl was done by Susan Freeman.

I've been up for several hours, if you can believe that, and have managed to get nothing done, except 3 cups of coffee. My tummy hurts. I thought about starting a new blog just for the pottery but I've decided to just transform this one. The last thing I need is another blog. I have several already and they get neglected.

I've added a new link: Ron Ponce Pottery. Check it out!

We fire the kiln on friday. I CAN'T WAIT! I'm excited to see all my pieces. V has said I'm a natural but I think she's the natural! All her new stuff looks really good. I'm proud of my Mams :) I've been somewhat scared of the wheel. I much rather hand build, for now anyway.

Hope everyone is well out there. <3

Busy Bees

This is an apple and honey set. Isn't it cute? I meant to make sure I wrote down all the artist info when I snagged this so I could add it. I forgot. Next time...

I'm excited. We've been very busy getting things together. I was a little worried that it wasn't going to happen! I'll add more pics soon.

I hope everyone is doing well. I've been really slack as of late on getting around to everyone's blog. I promise I'll come visit soon :) I've been good. A little stressed over money, as usual, but I've been keeping myself busy and trying not to worry too much about it. eh, to do to do... take care <3

I want to take a ride this weekend and enjoy peak week. It's been a couple of years, at least, since I've been up to the Blue Ridge Parkway. I just love this time of year. Things are changing..we're always changing..it does not bother me to say.
I've been working in the Pottery Shop all week. I'm excited. I can't wait to get everything done. The picture above is from a polish pottery site. I love it! Even with the christmas trees. It kind of gave me an idea to make a few of my cups with holiday decor. I found a piggy bank that is just too cute. I'll post him next time.
The Mr. will be starting work on Monday. I wish he had done this 2 weeks ago. I've been pretty stressed about bills but I know it will all work out, it always does. Hopefully I'll be able to keep the phone on. Taking on both these phone bills has proved a challenge for me. I HAVE to find work, and soon. Till next time, prayers and <3

This morning I tried to search for the 'master sensei' so I could add some pictures to a website I made. I found only one. I'll have to get the lastest pics off my camera. Mams.. if you are reading I could really use a 'artist statement' and a 'artist history/bio/...interesting facts and such to add to the website.

Finally a little taste of Autumn. mmmmmmmm

M - you've been haunting me lately. I just need to know ....
S - you're ok - you always are. Shine baby Shine <3

*Thanks Mams :)

I'll add some pics of Atalaya soon. I had a good time. Met some really nice people and overall enjoyed myself. We slept outside in a tent. First time in ten years! The tent had a skylight and falling asleep to the stars was just perfect. My poor Mams had a rough start but I think her weekend turned around, at least a little ;) I hadn't thought of 'Wendy' till just now. It's funny how life just carries you along. W was the artist (if you could even call her that) in the booth next to us. She called me a Jackass for taking back my apology, I think. It's hard to tell what set her off. Anyway- I do believe she ended up regreting her encounter with me. The wind was blowing my way.

I'm still waiting for the rush, 'The feeling of health, the full-noon trill'

At the festival a potter by the name of Annie Van Every gave me one of her pieces that a woman had refused to pay for after she chipped it. It touched me. Here is her website with a gallery of her work and a bio.


I'm still whirling about it. I think she was trying to inspire me. It was nice after the Wendy ordeal at any rate.

Today I spent most the day getting caught up on house chores and running errands. I spoke once again to the lady at the photo place. Seems that the lady I needed to talk to had went on vacation and never returned. Alas! I have to make another appointment.

My First Firing

Just thinking

I spent most the day outside today trying to enjoy all my
hard work this spring before it is gone. Most of what I planted
this summer is still blooming. I'm thirsty for Autumn though
and won't mind seeing it all go. I took Tala for a walk. She's
getting a little better on the leash but it's still a workout.
She gained some weight this summer so when her winter coat comes
in she's going to be a sight!

....that poor rabbit. I'm not sure if he's going to make
it through winter...he's not looking too hot. He has lost
the fur on one of his feet. Thinking about it today made me shudder.
Somehow this has got be bad luck.

I have a lot to do before old man winter comes, outside and in.
I must get ready.

I Wanted to Be Wrong

You know where I come from
You know what I feel
You're Yul Brenner Westworld
Reporting from the field.
I threw it into reverse,
Made a motion to repeal.
You kicked my legs from under me,
And tried to take the wheel.

I told you I wanted to be wrong,
But everyone is humming a song
That I don't understand.

Now I know that the sun has shined on my side of the street.
The basket of America, the weevils and the wheat.
The milk and honeyed congregation, scrubbed and apple-cheeked
Salute Apollo 13 from the rattle jewelry seats.

Mythology's seductive and it turned a trick on me
That I have just begun to understand.

The rodeo is staged, gold circle goat-ropers and clowns.
A rumble in the third act, tie 'em up and burn 'em down.
We're armed to the teeth, born a little breech;
Blue-plate special analysts, cells and SUV's

We can't approach the Allies 'cause they seem a little peeved
And speak a language we don't understand.

I told you I wanted to be wrong
But everyone is humming a song
That I don't understand.

(Prop up The Omega Man, we're primed for victory,
God gave us the upper hand, there's honor among thieves.
Temper it with arrogance, a dash of sad conceit.
The top's down on the T-Bird, we're the children of the free)

Storm into the boardroom of the conquering elite.
Did you recognize the madman who is shouting in the streets?
Destroy the things that I don't understand
Destroy the things that I don't understand

Immigrants

Theodore Roosevelt's ideas on Immigrants and being an AMERICAN in 1907.

"In the first place, we should insist that if the immigrant who comes here in good faith becomes an American and assimilates himself to us, he shall be treated on an exact equality with everyone else, for it is an outrage to discriminate against any such man because of creed, or birthplace, or origin. But this is predicated upon the person's becoming in every facet an American, and nothing but an American...There can be no divided allegiance here. Any man who says he is an American, but something else also, isn't an American at all. We have room for but one flag, the American flag... We have room for but one language here, and that is the English language... and we have room for but one sole loyalty and that is a loyalty to the American people."
Theodore Roosevelt 1907

Every American citizen needs to read this!

The River

You have to look close at this one!


I love the yellow ones <3 They must be smarter than all the rest ;)


Little flower from the river.


Hanky taking a nap in the window


Flora flourishing.

Grief is good

I discovered a blog devoted to writing your feeling's out to someone that you have lost. It was around my Father's birthday so I decided to submit a little something. You can check it out by hitting the link above. It's titled 'i still smell' - lol, I did not name it that.

Tomorrow I'll be able to get more pictures online <3 I can't wait to get them posted. Not all the pics from the river came out so good. I guess I needed to dump the pictures I had first, there was 123 before i started. I'm still learning this dig. camera.

P&L

National News - Click Here

It's wednesday.
I think. I've updated my mind. (3xsacharm)

Seems like Chad's family is getting some national news.
For the inquiring minds that want to know :P
I took them to her funeral. It was his sister who died and his
brother was driving the car. I've read some message boards -
some are on their soap boxes screaming that fast speed
chases kills innocent lives. If I wasn't somewhat involved
by D's hand I maybe would agree.

I dunno - These are not nice people.

I found out this morning that Dana's van was not stolen, as I had suspected, she lied to me. They were in a wreck (his fault) and the cops found approx. 3000 dollars worth of stolen stuff. The van is being held for evidence in the burglary.......apparently he took off and now is wanted for fleeing the scene....

I cannot even begin to tell you how mad this makes me...
That she would put me in that position.
These are not nice people - did I already say that?

Like the wind...it's gone. I'm done.

My Mister

Here are a couple of pictures of Rick from Vacation <3



I was on #29 when there was a knock on the door. INTrUDERS! Rick and I both looked at each other with wide eyes and disappointment soon sank in. I came right out and opened my big fat mouth and spoke before I really thought about what I was saying. grrrr..blame it on the stars - 2 more days.

Friday Night

The spring comes slow.
There is not much to it anymore.
Catch a breeze.
Catch a vice.
Let me see what's inside you
Open up and let's go for a ride.
Diamonds and hearts
open and sided
Along for a thrill
along for a lifetime.
your style,
your bended knee.
Sleep amoung the wild,
tricks and shine
come so easily.
I wanted to provoke you
A whisper going deep and sinking slow.




Still no title for this one. I've updated my Links :) I had to take Honey offline for just long enough to update and do some long overdue maintenence.

I read recently it's blogger tradition for the 100 post to be 100 things about yourself post. I did not know this. No one informed. So it's way overdue and I plan on making my list tonight.

Had an old friend stop by for a unexpected visit. It did not go too well. For those that may remember she is the same friend that was fighting for her children not too long ago. Ah..maybe I didn't update but she got the children back. Was doing really well. Had her children, a place to live, a job, a car. Things were looking up.

She longer has those children- once again. This is the 2nd time she has abandoned them. She's basically homeless now. Her van was stolen (more like it was picked up by the repo man ,her old boss had already gave me the scoop) - she told me that she and her b/f had been sleeping in the woods. This guy takes the cake as Dad used to say -She brings it upon herself..I could probably make a small fortune by writing her memoirs.
They spent three days. I was appauld. Unfortunetly I've become numb to it and that is the problem. The kicker is she is once again pregant. Prayers are exhausted. I don't want to be her friend anymore. Bad choice after bad choice after bad choice after.............

Now, I just have to figure out how to make myself cut ties.

Mother Teresa

Anyone have any comments on the Mother Teresa talk floating around? I personally don't understand why it matters it's not like it's 'late-breaking news'. I think that any person of ANY faith go through strong and weak periods. I know I do! I believe that the Catholics call this "the darkness' (dont quote me on that)- something to that effect though. I think we should remember her humanitarian work and not focus on what she may or may not have believed. That's between her and God. Check out the link above to learn something about this 'saintly' woman.

I've been away from the Pot. Shop for 2 weeks now. I'm officially in withdrawel. I'm going to really have to push myself this coming month. I'm back on a small scale diet. I want to lose 20 pounds. I really need to shed more but I'm trying to keep the amount of weight I want to lose small. Seems to be easier for me that way.

We plan on going to Pisgah this coming weekend <3 I can't wait! Now that I have a somewhat decent camera again I've been flash crazy. It has sparked my interest back somewhat. Maybe I'll start a photo blog or at least build up my port. I miss it.

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* Bill and Hiliary Clinton: Socialist Plague on America *
000ps!

Here's a few more pics from the beach:


Another photo taken at Fort Macon, NC


Pencil sketch of Rick:

Chele Crab

On the way home from vacation the truck broke down. Well, actually it's not a motor problem. We have a ball joint/wheel problem. We had it towed to my Mom's house. The stepdad (wonderful man) offered to fix it. It's been a tough job out in this August heat. And because we were ignorant to the problem at first and kept it on the road, certain parts got so hot they've melted together. So with this week coming to an end we now have the truck to look forward to for the rest of this week. (arrrrgghhhhh!)

Thought this picture I took at the beach perfectly describes my feel tonight. <3

Vacation Pics

We just got back from vacation!


This is Atlantic Beach, Nc...wonderful place!

Picture we had taken at Carowinds.

This is the trail that leads to Fort Macon.

The Pot Shop

Finally some pictures of the Pottery Shop.








This is my work station

I want

I've been feeling very restless lately.

Things are coming kinda slow in the pottery shop. But I'm having a lot of fun doing it. There's a show coming up at the beach I was invited to. It's five days, I'm not sure if the hubby will manage. This show will give V and I a chance to see how the circuit runs. I'm excited about it all. The man will be starting welding classes soon. But he now wants us to start a buisness we both can manage, that way we wont be spending so much time apart. Somehow I don't think it's going to work. <3

VISUAL DNA

Check it out, it's super cool. I <3 it! Tried to get it working on the side of my template but don't have the time to do it right now, The link is included above.